Grieving the Loss of a Dearest Mother, Mommy Lydia

One of my fave pictures of Mommy Lydia taken last July 30, 2016 during my 50th Birthday Celebration

It’s been two days since we brought my mother-in-law, Mommy Lydia to her final resting place last December 7, 2016.

She joined her Savior and Creator last December 2, 2016 at the age of 79

I love Mommy Lydia dearly…like my own mother. And she treated me like her own. Jonjie  always say that I am the daughter and he is the son-in-law.

Much as I want to focus on my pains, but I know that Jonjie is suffering more than I do. And he’s doing it silently…

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Daily Log: It’s Been A Year Madey…

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It’s been a year since you left us…forever…and it seemed like yesterday…the pain in my heart…the tears of missing you. The realization that I would never see you…again…or hear your gentle voice calling me Nene…ever again. 

Will it be like this? When sadness overtook all reasons…and I will feel the pain of losing you…of longing to be with you…even just for a while.

Will the tears stop falling? Will the pain go away and be replaced with just a dull ache? Will the longing fade away? Will I stop missing you? In time???

One thing is sure...July...my birth month...will always be bittersweet. It's the time of year that "God took you home"...the same time I was born...through you from God.

One of my favorite pictures of you. Taken during our trip to Hundred Islands, Alaminos, Pangasinan last December 22, 2013

I missed you so much Madey. And much as I want to remember your smile and the warmth of your love...but the pain won't go away.

You may also read:

• Farewell, Dearest Mother
• Remembering Mother A Day Before My Birthday
• Dearest Inay...I Remember You

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Dearest Inay…I Remember You

Inay…it was 2 months and 2 days ago when we lost you…when our Lord and Creator called upon you to join Him. We cried…we mourned our loss…and we are trying to live our lives.

Taken last April 28, 2013, at Clearwater Resort and Country Club, Clark, Pampanga

But there are times when I feel the pain as if it was just yesterday…when I misses you. And these past days were one of the hardest. And tonight while resting in the hammock at Daniz Garden, I remember you…

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Remembering Mother A Day Before My Birthday

I woke up this morning and my tears began to fall…lots of it….that turned into weeping. I felt as if my heart is being squeezed. It dawned on me with crushing pain that…

Jonjie woke up, then Daniz…they asked me what’s wrong. For a few moments, I cannot answer…I just cried my heart out. Then,

Me: It’s my birthday tomorrow and Inay will not be there to greet me (while sobbing uncontrollably)

Jonjie: We will be here for you (turning to Daniz for confirmation at the same time consoling me and reminding me to take a deep breathe)

Daniz: Mamay, don’t worry, she’s okey now (and embraced me, silently saying she’s there)

And they let me cried and cried…never leaving my side…embracing me…comforting me. I hope tomorrow will be a bit easier…

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Farewell, Dearest Mother

NORBERTA SALEN SABENIANO
June 06, 1941 ~ July 11, 2014

How do we let go of someone so special and constant in our lives?

How do we accept your passing and let God take you into His bosom?

Is it possible to celebrate your life, despite the pains and loneliness

And the void that you left behind?

Who will listen to our stories, comfort us when we are feeling down?

Who will be there to heal us or pray for us when we are sick?

Who will come travelling when there is a new addition to the family?

Who will answer us when we call Inay, Nay, Nanay, Madey?

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